Well I have made it back to the States and have been here for 4 days. I feel rather displaced and don't really know what to do about it. It is a different feeling, and I have never felt it before so that stresses me out a little. I guess it is just the change of everything and the culture is completely different. I have been living in a really chill, rich cultured, family oriented environment and loved it. I realized that is the type of culture I really loved with the kisses on the cheek greetings and the relaxed environment. I feel everything here is loud and rushed. People are jerks and families are not as close. I missed my family so much so that is really what keeps me happy. I am looking forward to my new life in Central this fall with some really great people and a house that isn't for parties. I get to have my own room and just live with some adults. Not that stupid teenage stuff I have dealt with in the past.
Granted the adjustment sucks but I am really trying my best and each day gets better. I've also had my first legal beer tonight. I enjoyed a coors light with my Daddy, and can't wait to go to dinner and celebrate with my parents and sister for my 21st.
I learned so much during my months abroad, and will hold all the experiences and lessons with me into the future and next year. I am ready to embrace Natalie and I am finally completely comfortable with who I am and know myself. It took me 21 years, but that's alright. I've always been a little different, but love life being one big school adventure that is useful. I have my family and the people in my life whom genuinely love me for me, and I could not be happier knowing that. I started swimming again, and my heart and body is happy and the negative energy I felt since getting back and with my travels at times is leaving. It really is just me and my soul in this crazy world of life, but I can't wait to continue learning and accomplishing what I started. Thank you everyone once again for your support and love. I have enjoyed it, and might start a new blog for my 21st year. But this is a part of my past that will be with me forever, but I want this to be of my 20th year. Not the future also. I am going to succeed. Who is with me? Vamonos.
Granted the adjustment sucks but I am really trying my best and each day gets better. I've also had my first legal beer tonight. I enjoyed a coors light with my Daddy, and can't wait to go to dinner and celebrate with my parents and sister for my 21st.
I learned so much during my months abroad, and will hold all the experiences and lessons with me into the future and next year. I am ready to embrace Natalie and I am finally completely comfortable with who I am and know myself. It took me 21 years, but that's alright. I've always been a little different, but love life being one big school adventure that is useful. I have my family and the people in my life whom genuinely love me for me, and I could not be happier knowing that. I started swimming again, and my heart and body is happy and the negative energy I felt since getting back and with my travels at times is leaving. It really is just me and my soul in this crazy world of life, but I can't wait to continue learning and accomplishing what I started. Thank you everyone once again for your support and love. I have enjoyed it, and might start a new blog for my 21st year. But this is a part of my past that will be with me forever, but I want this to be of my 20th year. Not the future also. I am going to succeed. Who is with me? Vamonos.
It was so nice having you here with us and I'm relly sad that I've missed you when you came back. It really felt like you were a "lost sister" and I -we, my sister, my dad and my mom- really look forward to have you back here again -or maybe, we can make it to the US someday :D
ReplyDeleteEither way, I'm really happy for you and all you've accomplished while you were here in South America.
You'll always have a home here, and wherever you are, you're always going to be in our hearts.
Love you, little sis!!!!